One Day

Sometimes I oversleep through everything in the world as dreams are so exciting. It seems that true life is initially there, in my fulfilled and charming fantasies, so everything else like the alarm clock is fictional.

Other days I reflect on why I am so embarrassed to express myself both in society and in creativity. It can be very challenging to handle yourself. I feel shy and reserved, but I want to overcome it and give my thoughts and actions their inner freedom.

I really love to cook, and even more—to eat. When I have lunch or dinner out, I always order pasta in there. This is how I can check the quality of the dish and cuisine. I think I’m ready to eat pasta every day.

I often wondered: what should I do to make people like my drawings? For now the relevant question is: what should I do to make me like them?

The strange thing for me: how difficult it is to evaluate your own self. Sometimes I try to acknowledge myself in reflection, and it all ends with the fact that I begin to see in the mirror a person who is completely unfamiliar to me.

Periodically, because of social networks, I start to think that everyone is so beautiful, successful and happy around me, and I am absolutely nothing like that. Suddenly I forget how people filter and choose information to post. I can’t say I like this ‘picking’.

I spend most of the time at home, and it becomes very difficult to be at one very place all the time. These moments I want to run anywhere and not to be there at all. But the opposite also happens: after a long trip, home seems to be the best place in the world. I want to keep these two feelings in harmony and stability.

I don’t like it when someone tries to seem different from who they are, when they play roles and create a fake image of themselves. Some people may say it’s charming how one can create a specific atmosphere around them every time they need it. And I just feel I am watching a theatrical performance in which there is no point.

Now it seems like a great time to rest before major changes start coming again. I like to be a small part of something bigger than me.

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These artworks depict one day from that period of my life when I was looking for myself and my own artistic style. That time I was not sure what exactly would happen to my life but I knew everything would be fine.

Created in early 2019.
All nine art tokens were minted for $5600.
Original paintings are owned by my family.